Today I turn 30. When I was in high school I made jokes about how I was going to be dead at 30 from a heart attack because I would just be eating steak and eggs all the time. At that time I felt that dying wasn't a big because I'd get to go to heaven. I was ready to sacrifice my life for Him.
That was then.
As this year starts I look forward to so many things. I want to meet my child and show them everything. I want to grow old with my wife. I want to live.
I know I'm not supposed to be of the world and to not love life more than God. I'm supposed to want to give it up at a moments notice for Him. That He should be my focus.
I just hope He waits, I don't want to go yet.